Last summer was the beginning of the end for my 18 year relationship with Alex. We struggled through the hot months with hurting hearts. Then, right before out baby girl turned 8, we separated, and he moved out. I’ve felt grief before but this loss, the loss of our family, our future together, our normal, pulled me deep down into depression. I knew that this was going to be one of the most difficult times in my life.
And it has been.
However, here I am, remembering how much I struggled to keep my head above water and suddenly I’ve realized how amazing this journey has been as well.
I don’t mean to go all “Stella got her Groove Back” on you, but the journey has held equal parts pain and joy. Loss and discovery. “Know the bad times so you can appreciate the good” and all the other clichés.
On the lighter side, I’m playing my recital, again, for another venue! Also, my hip was hurting again (pinched sciatic nerve) but I’m back on my feet and ready to get back on track for the Tour de Tucson! A TRO woodwind quintet has been created, I’m Super Duper excited to play in a quintet this summer.
I have more excitement coming this summer but I’ll wait to talk about it until it nailed down.
And here are some happy pictures.
Well, I killed my hard drive and that hasn’t helped my blogging backlog. I lost every single picture and video and audiobook for the last several months. Pictures of Christmas! It’s too sad, I can’t dwell on it.
Anyway, until I get everything back to speed I thought I would post a little about the new Christmas CD I played on!
It’s another collection of pieces to go with Alan Alexander’s flute and guitar books. This time we recorded each track independently so that the left and right channels can be turned down for practicing purposes. I know it’s not Christmas time anymore and if you’re like me you die inside for every post season verse of Jingle Bells that you hear, but I promise this music is real music and won’t make you die! I personally think it’s beautiful, but you can listen for yourself!